DO YOU APPRECIATE YOURSELF?

There was a time when i was shy and timid,too shy to participate in social gatherings,group works and even interact with the opposite sex. Every single detail about me bothered me;my face,my hair,how I smile,how I walk or how I talk
. I became sensitive, I feared that people mocked me because of my little 'but',my relationship will not last long because I was always feeling insecure,I had trust issues and just concluded that I am not good enough for anyone. I felt everyone had that special feature and I was just forcing my way to be noticed.
My life was boring and depressing,it all changed for the better when I thought it will end. I had a friend who at that time appreciated me and made me feel good about myself. Every heartbreak I had was the turning point because I realized that people will always see and talk and no matter how nice they can be or how bad they are,they only do what they have in mind to do.
I began to meditate on the my past,the things that I have done and what I have focused more about. It got to a point where I got to know that you get more knowledge about yourself when you meditate. I learnt so many things about myself and I got to know that I have been living trying to impress others and depended on public views and opinions rather than thinking of what I have in me.
At a point, I thrashed out the things I have been able to Mark as my weakness and tried to correct them. The things are:
* EXPECTATIONS: I stopped expecting much from people,I accept love and expect betrayal and backstabbing but I just live simply without expecting people to love me because I love them. I just expect them to change but I will still love them regardless.
*JUDGEMENT: I stopped judging myself,if there is anything wrong with me,I can change. I don't get to be hard on myself, I just work towards corrective measures. I just love me,because I am the most important person in my life and every other person can come and go but loving myself is healthy.
* EXPLORING MY TALENT: Exploring my God-given  talent also got me to love myself more,if you have a hidden talent, working on it and bringing it to your immediate environment will get you to love and appreciate yourself so much that you would want to do more.  If you have a talent and you are shy about it because you aren't good enough yet,all you have to do is research, practise,talk with people with great ideas and hard work. Trying to be perfect is detrimental and could be destructible to talents as it suppress you every time you fail and could hinder you to try something new.
*LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING: love is key and powerful. Since I know anyone can mess up,I just tell myself that "if they knew better,they will act better". Understanding that no one is perfect,we all have our ugly sides. Some people will make fun of you just to feel good about themselves.
*PRAYING: when it seems like I have lost my ways or my friends mock me,praying to God feels better believing that there is someone somewhere  who created me and loves me unconditionally. He never created an empty vessel,there is a unique feature and the knowledge about it is what makes us different, lay your hands on something, that is when God comes in.
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Written by-FOLORUNSO OLASUBOMI.
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